Sobrang saya ng week na ‘to… cmula nung birthday ko!!! grabe! Natulog ako ng 8:50PM-12AM ng Feb 14 para maghintay ng mga bati… at may mga bumati naman… hehe! Tapos nag-aral ako sa math… Achievement test nun db? At breakfast na! Maraming bumati at binati ko cla Romar at KJ. After the test, syempre kain ng lunch. At sobrang bored na ako at naiinip kaya nalungkot ako. Gusto ko na magpraktis 4 harana e… pero busy pa cla lahat at parang d na siya special day for me. Pero pinagdasal ko nung umaga na sana d ako mag-expect. Gusto ko siyang i-treat as normal day lang. Pero kahit normal day, madalas pa din naman akong madrama e. Anyway. I did not expect the party. Hehe… actually, pinapakiramdaman ko un. Pero d ko pa rin nahalata. Nahalata ko na lang sa caf na… May papel na tinatago ang mga tao sakin… so may strips pala! C hopee may mga papel sa bulsa ng polo niya e. Pero d ko pa un natatanggap. At akala ko un lang ang meron… Gusto ko na matapos Gluon sa STR para sa praktis at c hopee parang gusto na din matapos ang Gluon. Bkt kaya? pero nung matapos na ang Gluon sa kanilang STR, excited na ako magpraktis… pero parang wala clang pakialam. Linabas ni andrew beatbox niya 4 praktis pero d pa din kami makaalis sa caf dhil tinutugtog un ni jao. Tapos tinawag ni jao c pito… at c janel at garrick andun na din. Naguusap-usap cla. At dala ko na organ ko. Pinapababa ni mich! Ayaw ko naman kasi praktis na dapat… tapos padami nang padami ang tao sa faculty lounge. Tapos nahalata ko na. At tinawag na ako ni mich at hopee… tapos “Happy Birthday Henson!”. Iyak naman ako. May cake, carbonara from joji, palabok na inorder ng mommy ni hopee, pichi-pichi na gawa ng mom ni hopee at caf foods! At hinarana ako ng The Nerve with Seasons of Love! Haha!!! at kumain na kami. At tinanong ko mga tao kung klan pa pinaplano ung party. Haha! At nagspeech na ako. Pero habang ako’y nagsasalita, nilagyan nila ako ng icing sa mukha!

Sobrang salamat sa mga taong nagprepare nung party! Kay hopee at mich and other people. Sa mga pumunta nung party! Slamat. U made that birthday the best! Thank You God for this people who are always their to listen and make me happy. At marami palang natirang fud kaya binigay namin sa guard. Pero ung carbonara, napanis. Sori joji.

Syempre d pa ngtatapos un dun. May Harana pa. The next day, praktis kami with my father at inayos niya. At nagdasal kami ung members ng band Subra-Subra! Hehe. Tuwa naman ako. At nagdasal pa cla individually. Muni-muni pa! At kami ang last performer! C pito kasi e… at nanalo kami. Pero mas importante na sana natouch ang mga tao sa kanta. At naging proud sakin tatay ko. At ang pinagsamahan namin nga mga kaibigan ko. Basta! At napaiyak ako at niyakap ko ang mga kasama ko… c muy, nave, kuya ‘to, andrew, ben at ang aming manager, c mich. At napaiyak c papa pero ayaw ipahalata. Speechless ako after ng harana. Overwhelmed e..

God inspired me to write a song not just to join harana but to influence other people and share what I know about God. And we want to use our talents for Him Ito na ang kanta…

You are Love

I

I was searching

I was longing

From every person

For a love everlasting

For I was empty

I felt lonely

Not so worthy

And nobody would love me as me

I was waiting for a love to fill me

A love to complete me

Chorus I

Who could give the love I need

That would change the way I live?

Who’s that person that would care to feel my hurt?

Whose eyes could see my sin

But would love me still the same?

I did not know until You came

II

Love was a mystery

I could not show it

For I did not know it

I was blind to see it

But my eyes You opened

My heart enlightened

For You have showed me

Showed me that You love me as I am

Now I love and know what real love is

Because You first loved me

Chorus II

You gave the love I need

That changed the way I live

You are the one who cares to feel my hurt

Your eyes could see my sin

But You love me still the same

Now I know love because You came

Bridge

Your love has coverd all my sins

There’s no greater love than Yours

You love me because of who You are

Because of who You are

You are loved

III

When I met You

Your love touched me

Your love moved me

And I’m not the same

I know You made me

For You to love me

I know You made me

For me to love and share what You gave me

And it’s because of what You’ve done on the cross

Just for us all

Chorus III

Jesus gave the love I need

That changed the way I live

Jesus is the one who cares to feel my hurt

Jesus’ eyes could see my sin

But Jesus loves me still the same

Now I know love ’cause Jesus came

Coda:

I know Your love for me remains

I love You and I’m not ashamed

Song: Blessed Be Your Name

Blessed be Your name

In the land that is plentiful

Where the streams of abundance flow

Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name

When I’m found in the desert place

Though I walk in the wilderness

Blessed be Your name

Refrain:

Every blessing You pour out

I turn back to praise

When the darkness closes in, Lord

Still I will say

Chorus:

Blessed be the name of the Lord

Blessed be Your name

Blessed be the name of the Lord

Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name

When the sun’s shining down on me

When the world’s all as it should be

Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name

On the road marked with suffering

Though there’s pain in the offering

Blessed be Your name

*You give and take away

You give and take away

My heart will choose to stay

Blessed be Your name

Song: If we are the body

Artist: Casting Crowns

It’s crowded in worship today
As she slips in trying to fade into the faces
The girls teasing laughter is carrying farther than they know
Farther than they know

Chorus:
But if we are the body
Why aren’t His arms reaching?
Why aren’t His hands healing?
Why aren’t His words teaching?
And if we are the body
Why aren’t His feet going?
Why is His love not showing them there is a way?
There is a way

A traveler is far away from home
He sheds his coat and quietly sinks into the back row
The weight of their judgmental glances
Tells him that his chances are better out on the road

Jesus paid much too high a price
For us to pick and choose who should come
And we are the body of Christ

Jesus is the way

Song: Voice of Truth

Artist: Casting Crowns

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I’m in
Onto the crashing waves

To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He’s holding out His hand

But the waves are calling out my name
And they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I’ve tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy, you’ll never win!"
"You’ll never win!"

Chorus:
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
The voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they’d have had the strength to stand

But the giant’s calling out my name
And he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I’ve tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy you’ll never win!"
"You’ll never win!"

But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don’t seem so high
From on top of them lookin’ down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me

I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

Here is a song that makes my heart so overjoyed because it reminds me of a very big miracle that God has done in my life— salvation—- by his blood when he died on the cross.

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The Glory

By: Avalon

In the solitary moment of His birth
On this barren dusty land
All of heaven kissed the face of the earth
With a miracle of love
God became a man
But He was sent away to draw his final breath
When he was only thirty-three
And in the shame of dying a criminal’s death
He cleansed an angry world
And in his suffering I see

Chorus:
The glory of the blood
The beauty of the body
That was broken for our forgiveness
The glory of His perfect love
Is the heart of the story
The glory of the blood

I have tried to find salvation on my own
In a search for something real
There’s a guilty heart inside this flesh and bone
I fall upon his grace
And I begin to feel

Chorus:
The glory of the blood
The beauty of the body
That was broken for our forgiveness
The glory of His perfect love
Is the heart of the story
The glory of the blood

And when I close my eyes I can see Him
hanging there
Oh the precious wounded Lamb of God
And all the majesty in this world can not compare
to the glory
The beauty of the body
That was broken for our forgiveness

Chorus:
The glory of the blood
The beauty of the body
That was broken for our forgiveness
The glory of His perfect love
Is the heart of the story
The glory of the blood

He was sent away to draw His final breath
When He was only thirty-three

QUOTE

Seven days without prayer makes one weak.

QUOTE

When struggles of life seem so heavy to bear, don’t ask God to lighten the load but ask Him to strengthen your back for you to carry them.

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WORD

1 John 4:4

Greater is He that is in you, than he that is in the world.

I am sad.

My soul is down.

My heart is crying.

My mind is thinking: "Did I do something wrong?"

Why am I having this feeling again?

Why do I feel so alone?

Why am I so looking for something more than what exists or happens?

Why do I think that you are so far? that God is so far?

My heart is mourning….

God help me……

I have my faith and hope in you…..

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I wanna share this song that I also want to sing to God right now…

Song: Draw Me Close To You

Draw me close to you
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear you say that I’m your friend

You are my desire
No one else will do
’Cause nothing else could take your place
To feel the warmth of your embrace
Help me find the way, bring me back to you

You’re all I want
You’re all I’ve ever needed
You’re all I want
Help me know you are near

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Sobra pala akong nakakarelate sa song na to ngayon. Kasi feeling ko iniwan ko si God at iniwan din kita… at sobrang layo niyo na sakin. Kaya I want to "Draw me close to you" and I want "to hear you say that I’m your friend." "Help me know you are near."

This is one of the songs ng retreat na nagstrike sa akin.

Title: He Knows My Name

I have a maker
He formed my heart
Before even time began
My life was in his hand

Chorus:
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And hears me when I call

I have a Father
He calls me his own
He’ll never leave me
No matter where I go

Chorus:
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And hears me when I call