YOU and ME…

Nkakabitin ung retreat. But it was a good retreat because it satisfied my expectation - to have more time to experience God. It was a long time that I felt so far away from Him but I was not having the thirst for Him. And the retreat came, I realized my weakness. I found that there was no sense of fulfilment anymore in my life because I was far away from Christ. He said, "Apart from me, you can do nothing." I also realized that when I pray, its not a prayer anymore since prayer is not just a routine or a religious duty but it is communicating with God. It is not handing God our wishlist we ask from Him. He is not like a wishing well that you just throw a coin for your wish to be granted. I realized again that despite all the selfishness and pride, He just chose to love me. Just like my parents who loved me since birth despite the crying in the middle of the night, the poo-poo in the diaper that needs to be changed and others but they chose to love me. Ilang beses din ako pinaiyak doon. At nakakatouch at nakakatuwa ung mga palanca letters na binigay sa akin. I will miss that retreat. But I hope, all the learning and spiritual growth will not only work when a retreat or the like comes. I hope it continues even in school, in the house and anywhere.

Song: Day Of Freedom

Artist: Rachael Lampa

One Man lived to bring a vision.
One Man died to save a nation.
One Voice calls us all to freedom
In the name of love.

Reaching out to one another,
Joining hands of every color…
Name each one a sister and brother
In the name of love.

Let us praise the Name of Jesus
All across the world!

We are all children of the faith,
And though we walk in different ways,
Let us live our lives to celebrate
The day of freedom.

Tore down all the walls between us,
Broke up all the chains that bound us,
Found the common ground beneath us
In the name of love.

Let us step into the water.
Let us drink the blood of Jesus!
No more wars to separate us
In the name of love.

Let us build a bridge that reaches
All across the world!

We are all children of the faith,)
And though we walk in different ways
Let us live our lives to celebrate
The day of freedom!

Hey! Hey…hey
Kum bah yah ha-yah ha-yah yah.
Kum bah yah ha-yah ha-yah yah.
Kum bah yah ha-yah ha-yah yah, yah yah yah yah.

Kum bah yah ha-yah ha-yah yah.
Kum bah yah ha-yah ha-yah yah.
Kum bah yah ha-yah ha-yah yah, yah yah yah yah.

Oh…

We are all children of the faith,
And though we walk in different ways,
Let us live our lives to celebrate
Oh, the day of freedom!
Day of freedom…
Kum bah yah ha-yah ha-yah yah.
Kum bah yah ha-yah ha-yah yah.
Kum bah yah ha-yah ha-yah yah, yah yah yah yah….

Kum bah yah ha-yah ha-yah yah. (ohh)
Kum bah yah ha-yah ha-yah yah. (ohh)
Kum bah yah ha-yah ha-yah yah, (ohh) yah yah yah yah.

Kum bah yah ha-yah ha-yah yah. (ohh)
Kum bah yah ha-yah ha-yah yah. (ohh)
Kum bah yah ha-yah ha-yah yah, (ohh) yah yah yah yah

It’s been a long time that I never updated my blog. Buti na lang, may time ako ngayon. Malapit na ang retreat. I hope I can the sponsor program has money for me already so that I can join. I’m excited!!! Sana makagawa na ko ng palanca para sa mga friends ko this week.

Sana din makapagbasa na ko ng Things Fall Apart para ‘di na ko masyado mahirapan.

I also hope that I can start on my Batok Book for maSKara already.

At sana din manalo kami sa YMCA Journalism Contest. That’s all. God Bless You people…

Song: If My People Pray

Artist: Avalon

Now
is the season for healing
Deeply we need to see God’s mercy revealing
Where we have fallen from His way
For we know He gives hope to the humble

Gives light in the darkness
And grace when we stumble
Let us call
on His name together
Knowing He will say …

CHORUS:
If My people pray
And reach
for Me with hearts that are broken
I will not forget what I’ve spoken
Come and seek My face
And heaven will rain Rivers of My grace overflowing

Night and day My ears will be open
If My people pray

Now is the day to
awaken
To pray with conviction
For the souls of the nation
So let
us call on His name
Whose faithful promise still remains ..

CHORUS 2:
If My people
pray
(If My people who are called by My name)
And reach for Me with
hearts that are broken
(Humble themselves and pray)
I will not forget
what I’ve spoken
Come and seek My face (Seek Me)
And heaven will rain
(If My people who are called by My name)
Rivers of My grace overflowing (Turn
from their wicked ways)
Night and day My ears will be open
If My people
pray

BRIDGE:
Let us not grow weary as we wait for the day
When the light turns
our night into morning
On our knees, calling Your name as we lift our hearts
to heaven Yeah,
knowing You will say …

(REPEAT CHORUS 2)

Ang galing ng Rivermaya!!! kakaconcert lang nila sa gym ng Pisay nung Friday at libre pa ung concert. Nakabili din ako ng poster at nakapagpa-autograph.. Yes! At thank God kasi nanalo ko sa district Press. Con. sa copyreading and headline writing ng 2nd place at di ko man lang ineexpect. Mag-aanniversary na ang ACTS sa Thursday. 12 years na ang ACTS.
kakahumanities week lang at sobrang busy ng mga tao. ako pa ang nagcover ng Machismo(ACLE) para sa Science Scholar. tsaka kahit di nanalo ang Beryllium sa Di Kumbenmsyunal na Musika, ok lang un. Foundation Day na bukas at kakanta daw ako kasama sila Andrew, Pito, at Jaki. Wala pa nga kaming kanta e. Ano pa ba? wala na akong pera… un lang

Song: Pray
Artist: True Vibe

"Thinking through
What to do
You’re searching every angle and point of view
Good advice, well rehearsed
Only seems to make matters worse
When you’re at a dead end
Where do you go?
My friend, there’s an answer I know

Pray, when the road is steep
Pray, when you’re hope gets weak
Know the Father hears through
The silence and the tears you
Pray, when you don’t know how
Pray, heaven’s waiting now
And Jesus is just a breath away
Pray

The deepest sighs
Of the heart
Sometimes it’s a struggle when we first start
To wrap our needs up in words
And trust that somehow we will be heard
Draw near, and know you are loved
God hears, and his heart is touched

Pray for the strength you’re needin’
To go on believin’
No matter what you face
You’ll have the wisdom and the grace to…"

Song: Who am I
Artist: Casting Crowns

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wondering heart.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you’ve done.
Not because of what I’ve done.
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I’m calling,
Lord you catch me when I’m falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see our sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am.
But because what of youve done.
Not because of what I’ve done.
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I’m calling,
Lord you catch me when I’m falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you’ve done.
Not because of what I’ve done.
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I’m calling,
Lord you catch me when I’m falling,
You told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
‘Cuz I am yours.
I am yours.

Thank God dahil nakapagbonding na naman ang Dahlia. Kakaovernyt lang namin kanila Nico nung Friday. We played cards, killer-killer, papel-papel (un ang tawag ni Hopee e). Tulog pa ng si Mithi dun sa studio pic namin. Tanong lang: Paano daw mamalengke si Mam B****l? Sagot: Isuksok sa ilong saka isinga. Paano din daw gumagana ang virginity soap? Sagot: kapag maka-arabesque. Hehehe… Pero di tuloy ako nakapunta sa meeting ng ACTS. Kasi late kami nasundo. Anyway bday ng ate ko sa Aug 15 at niregaluhan ko siya ngayon. di man lang nga ako niyaya maggimmick e. And thank God din kasi tapos na chamber theater namin. Sa Friday na rin ang camp ng ACTS.. Exciting… At pupunta na din kami sa Wowowee sa Thursday. Un lang. Salamat…

Kakafield trip pa lang sa socsci nung Friday at inabot kami ng ulan. Anyway, field trip na naman bukas. Nagtataka lang ako kung bakit ako ‘di naeexcite. Hmmn… Salamat naman at mapera pa ko. Malapit na kasi ang ACTS camp. Sana marami makasama at kasama na ko dun. Excited na ko sa ACTS camp e. Anyway, gutom na ko. Bye…

Time to look back on my faith goals that I set on the first day of this year-January 1, 2005 since it is more than half of the year already. It would be good to evaluate what I’ve done for the first half of the year regarding my faith goals and improve/change what I didn’t do. The following are my faith:

• Everyday quiet time.
• Prayer as a routine.
• Prayer for every decision.
• High spiritual principles.
• Fellowship improvements.
• Evangelism.

I think I failed on having a quiet time even though I do it often but my goal is to have it everyday that is why I failed it. Sometimes I become lazy or I make excuses to God.

Even making prayer as a routine is a failure because sometimes I forget to pray before I eat or sleep. Even in ACTS, we feel that we do not having enough prayers. I can’t remind myself of praying for every decision to ask God’s wisdom or just to thank Him. Prayer pa naman is very important kasi

High spiritual principles… hmmmn… no… I can’t say that I have this because I think I’m no good example to others. Actually, may pagkabastos ako.. alam niyo naman iyon di ba?

Ok naman ang fellowship ko sa ACTS at nagiging mabuti na rin sa church namin kasi cguro binago ko ni God at my cell groups na din. I hope ‘di na mawala ito at sana naman ‘di nababaluktot ang purpose ko sa pagpunta ko sa ACTS at church —- I mean sana ‘di lang pakikisama sa mga tao ang pinunta ko dun.

Evangelism ang pinakamahirap pero nasisimulan ko din naman.

Ngayon, kailangan kong bumawi sa mga ‘di ko nagawa. Kaya pa naman e. Sabi nga ni sa Bible, "Greater is He(GOD) that is in me than he(devil) that is in the world."